Been a long time
Been a long time since I rock and rolled, no but seriously. I started reading 'Find Me' and I'm hooked. It's the not the best book I've read in the true literary sense - she is not no Shakespeare. The emotion is so raw in this book - it compels me to read it. I don't want to do a full out review here as I'm not finished yet (tonight though I will be).
Through reading this book I am reliving my own experiences. I had no idea what the book was about going in. Sometimes I feel only the heaviness of the my past not the events themselves. That is the best way to describe having survived sexual abuse - it's cumbersome. It is like a little red wagon, sometimes it does come in handy but most of the time you just drag it along, hoping the weight will lesson eventually. It is these heavy times I learn the most from. It is difficult to take a hard look at yourself while you are flying from a cloud.
Here is a hard truth I must now admit to myself - I can be very manipulative. I don't mean witches standing around a bubbling cauldron sort of thing. There are occurrences which transpire and although I realize later (or sometimes during) that I affected the outcome in a significant way - all the while not being much aware I was doing it.
Seems a bad place to end but I want to go read now.
Through reading this book I am reliving my own experiences. I had no idea what the book was about going in. Sometimes I feel only the heaviness of the my past not the events themselves. That is the best way to describe having survived sexual abuse - it's cumbersome. It is like a little red wagon, sometimes it does come in handy but most of the time you just drag it along, hoping the weight will lesson eventually. It is these heavy times I learn the most from. It is difficult to take a hard look at yourself while you are flying from a cloud.
Here is a hard truth I must now admit to myself - I can be very manipulative. I don't mean witches standing around a bubbling cauldron sort of thing. There are occurrences which transpire and although I realize later (or sometimes during) that I affected the outcome in a significant way - all the while not being much aware I was doing it.
Seems a bad place to end but I want to go read now.
